Last night our 15 yr old rang from a camp she was on. In tears she told us one of her friends back at home had taken his own life. My heart broke listening to her cry as she wondered why. Sadly, this isn’t the first time she has had someone she cares about take their own life. She is 15. She should be doing silly things, making silly jokes, being immature, talking for hours to her friends, playing pranks, and enjoying life. Yet, here she is… mourning yet another friend. A life taken too soon. A young man, a father whose little girl will now grow up without a Daddy, a girlfriend devastated, left thinking she didn’t do enough, and I can’t even imagine how his parents and siblings must feel.
My heart cries out to God – when will this stop? When will it end? How many of our children have to go through wanting to die themselves, or watching friends take their own lives before we take hold of your promises?
Just like God had plans for Israel while they were in captivity, He also has plans for us. Jeremiah 29:11 was talking to the nation of Israel, yet it shows the heart of God. His heart is for goodness, for us to flourish, for us to continue to hope, and for our future to be one that glorifies Him.
The verses following read: “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you….. ”
How good we have a God who we can always call on. One we can come to in prayer and know he is listening. Know He is waiting for us to seek him, and we will always find Him. Right there. In the midst of chaos. In the middle of the desert, of captivity, and in the middle of trouble. He looks down and sees us. He hears our distress, and sees our tears.
We might not find our ‘out’ straight away. We may have to keep walking through our desert before we reach the promise. Yet God can also work in the desert, just as he can work in times overflowing in goodness. We just need to hold on. To hope when all seems hopeless, and to cling to Him when we are weak. There is no situation too big for God.
My heart is heavy today. Life is not meant to be cut short, taken away, or lives ruined by the choices we make. We rest in the knowledge that God knows all, and His heart weeps alongside ours.
If you ever need someone, please reach out. To me, to your family, professionals. We aren’t made to walk through this life alone, we are made for community, for loving, and caring for each other. Know how much you are loved and cared for, and don’t walk another day alone. Cling to Jesus, hold on to hope.